Yeah, so, some thoughts from my summer.
[more space in my life, more space in my heart.]
I’ve been working on minimizing my ‘stuff’ to ‘make more space’ for things in life that matter more (like love and peace and happiness) and it’s been an interesting process.
All summer, I’ve been kind of freaking out about moving in with my…
Ever since I started getting serious about my yoga practice, I have been intent on mastering a handstand. I started yoga without much, if any, strength, but after a few months I could hold plank, move through chatarungas, and hang out in downward dog with relative ease. I was so inspired and…
If any of you yogis haven’t checked out my secondary blog…here you go! I am attempting to become more organized and am thus putting most of my yoga/philosophy/food/healthy living related posts on this other blog. Enjoy!
I went to a back bending workshop last weekend, taught by an incredibly knowledgeable and gifted ashtanga yogi, and was able to get into this pose and out with a little support.
The first time I went into it, I was completely enveloped in fear because it almost felt like my back would crack in half! But I did it, and after a few days to rest my muscles I was ready to try again. Tonight was a good time because I was warm from a flow class. It was fearless this time, because I knew I was going to be fine.
My goal would be to try insane stuff like this without that initial fear the first time. That was a foreign experience to me because I have never been scared of a pose before! However, I’m learning to embrace the journey and push my limits, even if I’m not sure I can pull it off.
Making more space for more love. 2014.
While I haven’t been focusing specifically on back bending over the year, I have noticed a huge change in the openness of the majority of my back, chest and shoulders. When I compare February (left) to October (right), it’s exciting to see how much space I’ve been able to open up in a year of consistent practice! 2014 is going to be an insane year, if I’ve already made this much progress!
This year has been a wild ride. I am so thankful to say that it has been a journey of overwhelming happiness, for the most part. Not that it was all marshmallows and roses, though—there have been a lot of opportunities to change and grow as a person in there, too, and for those I am the most thankful.
Every year I sit down and look back over my life, utilizing that poetic “hindsight is 20/20” concept to hopefully shed a little light on why I am here. Every year I realize that I still don’t see the entire picture, as much as I long for a completely balanced perspective on myself, but I am given little pieces of truth that continue to help me figure out the puzzle. Yes, I know this will be a life-long process. No, my goal is not to know everything about everything, or even about myself. Instead, all I’m really hoping to do is use the truth I have been given by God to create more space to fill with more love, because if I have nothing else at the end of a season, I know I will have that, and it’s enough.
My main focus over 2013 was maintaining a healthy perspective in every situation in life. Obviously I knew this was not going to be without challenges, but wow, was it harder than I expected. I had a few pivotal moments where I was nursing a great stress tornado, only to suddenly be called back by this little poke from within that reminded me, “Hey, you brought this on yourself. Change your perspective, change your situation.” Within minutes, I’d sit there dumbfounded at how trivial my issue was when I looked at it from the right perspective.
Ultimately perspective stems from a foundation of faith. Everyone believes in something, whether they admit it or not. Belief builds our culture and shapes us not only as a whole, but as individuals.
“What is the eternal power in a human being? It is faith. What is the expectancy of faith? Victory—or as Scripture teaches, that all things work together for the good of those who love God. Faith is an expectancy of the future that expects victory. Faith conquers the future. The believer, therefore, is finished with the future before he begins the present, and this victory can only make him stronger for the present work.” - Soren Kierkegaard
And so I learned and I grew, a lot more than I realized after I looked back over this year, which continues to amaze me, and I had this perfect, neat little essay written up about all the nuggets of truth I’ve acquired through this journey towards discovering perspective. But the year isn’t over yet, and in the last three days I have completely rewritten a month’s worth of work into this much more realistic, not as eloquently presented, account of my journey, because I didn’t actually get the plot twist on this story until today: The healthiest perspective can be found by being present.
That’s right. There isn’t any magical “will this matter in two months” formula for peace of mind and a reduced-stress existence. In order to get past the hard stuff, you need to actually go through it, and not try to escape it or pull out some meditation that will make it easier or less uncomfortable. You just need to put your feet on the ground where you are, take a deep breath and move forward. Face all those fears and pains and triggers, and make yourself get inside them and figure out why they are the way they are, whatever that means for you. Only then will you finally have the perspective Kierkegaard was talking about above: The victory is already won. There’s nothing left to worry about. And then you will realize what you can do to keep going, because you’ll know without a doubt that life will keep moving forward, and you need to stay in the present, where it’s happening and where you have the choice of how to react to your environment. You need to do the present work to gain the perspective you need for your future.
Realizing how much I have adapted to unconsciously applying this philosophy has shown me the extent to which I’ve changed as a person in the last year. It’s changed dynamics in my priorities and relationships for the better. It’s certainly changed the way I move through my life; I approach opportunities with less fear and more ambition than I used to. I’m learning what to let matter and what to let go of. I am learning how much there is in life to absolutely love, and how to make room for more of that day-to-day.
With that being said, I am content with how my story is going so far. I’m so thankful to the people in my world who have walked with me through some crazy times in my life this year. God has given me so many opportunities to be challenged, open up, and share love, and that’s always an good thing.
Thanks for taking time to read what’s been on my mind and heart as we go into the next year. I hope you continue growing in your walk through life, whether you are lengthening the same path or starting a new adventure. Feel free to share what you’ve learned over 2013 in my ask! I’d love to hear it!
(February 2013-October 2013 progress. Sometimes you don’t realize how much you’ve grown until you look with perspective!)
I just listened to two ads, consecutively, about energy shots and energy pills.
Life tends to get hectic over the holidays, but that doesn’t mean you have to drag along dependent on caffeine! Here’s a few tips to boost your energy effectively:
- Drink enough water. Water keeps all the ‘circuits’ connected in your body.
- Avoid excess sugar, caffeine and alcohol.
- Sleep enough! Nothing really compensates for a full night’s sleep.
- Rest when you can. That one loose end can probably wait an hour while you take some time to breathe.
- Get your feet up. At the end of the day, nothing helps revitalize your body like getting the blood going in a different direction.
Here’s a crazy arm balance I tried this summer and couldn’t accomplish. I forgot about it and suddenly remembered it last night when some folks were playing around after class, and surprise! Nailed it on the first try!
Pics are from tonight. Naturally yesterday I forgot to document my moment of triumph.
Last night I was spontaneously taken out, to chill at a bar pretty close to my place, by this handsome manly man holding my heart.
Bars do not have good lighting for self-indulgent attempts at adorable couple shots.
Who cares. I have no complaints. Life is beautiful, I am secure, and my future is slowly unfolding in front of me more every day.
I’m enjoying the journey. So much change and growing.
Happy weekend, folks :)